Are You Pondering What I'm Pondering??

...so says Brain to Pinky before every one of his fanatical plots to take over the world.  Did you ever watch Pinky and the Brain?  I loved that show.  I kinda feel like them to crazy lab rats sometimes.  They run around with a crazy plan to accomplish the impossible.  Once Brain said, "This is the earth. And this is Pinky. You can tell the difference quite easily. One is a lump of inert matter hurtling blindly through the void. The other... is the earth."  Right now I feel like Pinky in this quote.  I don't know what the future will bring for my husband and I and our two dogs, and although it may seem exciting to some people, it's also quite frightening.  I have been working full time for the last month as a co-worker recovers from cancer.  She is an amazing woman, and I know that if I were in her shoes I could not be as strong and courageous as she has been.  Fingers crossed, she will be back to work after next week, and I.....well.... I will be back to my 8 hours a week.  There haven't been as many opportunities as I had hoped for here when I graduated from dental hygiene school.  I was confident that I would move back to Idaho and be employed very quickly, but that hasn't been the case.  Jake has been wanting to move to Oregon for quite some time now, so I have been checking the job boards for dental hygiene jobs there.  It seems like there are always jobs being posted there, a stark contrast to southeast Idaho.  So last week I applied for a license in Oregon, and once it goes through (assuming it does!!) I will start to apply for jobs there and see what the future has in store.  Can anybody make me feel better about this?  Because I really don't want to move....but I do really want to help out with the finances.  The Brain: "Pinky, are you pondering what I'm pondering?" Pinky: "I think so, Brain, but if they called them "sad meals" no one would buy them."